The extra second of your life…

Now a days everyone seems to be busy, it’s becoming a competition apparently, I had a quick look through to the article in http://www.stylist.co.uk/ , nevertheless we constantly are or pretend that we have a timeframe for everything.

I like to comment about this which annoys me a lot about how some people (possibly me too without realizing it) behave to save the extra second while pushing through other people in the Tube escalator or gates.

Do we really want that second?, is this time imperative for us?. Well I think not.

I understand that we can be in a hurry but really dwell in that insignificant particle of time is making us feel miserable, adding to whatever drama is going on in our lives.

I think we concentrate too much in the negative rather that keep going. Life goes on there is many aspects of it some that are schedule and some that not.

Schedules , rotas, plans, calendars, PAs, mothers, wives  and all of this sort of organizational tools help us to survive and have a more orderly life but they should not take over from the organic time that let us be who we really are. maybe lazy, super driven and all the possibles in between.

We should not be condition by time we need to make time work for us and don’t be that impatient that we can not spare a second, to let a fellow human do something that does not going to change the course of our lives, before us.

What is more sad is that maybe I’m very gullible and people are rude and there isn’t more to it . ( I’ll refuse to think that though)

Sorry for spelling and grammar mistakes.

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The desire to wear next season fashion

Some women(me included) can not wait for the following season to start in order to wear the clothes which will be on trend. Sometimes even if we know it will not make us look our best. It is the desire of feeling  that you are on point at least with your fashion sense.

“Is it because we love change and clothe is something we can control ? Well not really as now is like 23 degrees centigrades outside and most the ladies I’ve have seen today are wearing some sort of autumnal garment or should I refer to it as Fall as we talking fashion here.

I must admit there are still the human who desperately want the so call summer not to end until late September, so they can wear as much  of their Feb-March shopping spree. as possible or simply wear the white shirt with jeans classic outfit. That method is a bit tricky because if you  are one of those people you are always about a month out of fashion (I think…)

There is so many clothe ,trends etc that one sometimes gets overwhelmed and everything goes out the window. and you wear whatever, I know this  seems very lame and frivolous but loads of people put a lot of energy ,time and skills on making sure fashion and seasons are follow or liked.

There is no rule really of when to wear any garment if you like it and feel like it wear it no matter the season. Although the people of the fashion industry may differ as “There is an outfit for every occasion” . Again dear reader I got court reading about the subject of fashion and lost the trail of what I was on about…  please accept my apologies.

 

Interesting reads:

https://www.savoirflair.com/fashion/106670/fashion-decoded-seasons-explained

One of Those days…

And suddenly you find yourself trying to not fall into depression, you know it is  there, waiting to embrace you. You have fought it for many years but sometimes you are more vulnerable to it.

Standing there ready to give you a slimy hug of disper ,no hope of moving forward with anything and inviting you to create a painful or worthless outcome to your thoughts.

I can look  to my depression in the eye and keep it at bay, It is like my own remora. But my question is how long I will be strong enough not to give up and succumb to its arms of infinite bad energy.

I do not want to be depressed as I know there is loads to be happy and positive about in life and I do not have a bad one either (” life, that is”)but that does not stop me wanting to chose the easy option and cradle in a hole of mud that becomes impossible to climb.( I visualized the scene of “Labyrinth” when she is falling and all the hands are dropping her and holding her without been very helpful) don’t we all feel like that from time to time.

I can not finish this as I got distracted thinking in films etc but that is how depression tries to latch in to me.

 

Anxious much…

I love Mondays, although today I’m anxious, it really annoys me having this mood, the feeling that something would happen without nothing really giving me any indication of it.

Fine there are things to do( duhh) but nothing out of the ordinary that would make me antsy.

The feeling of an emptiness that needs to be fulfill in order to have another expectation or task to feel the same towards.

Well let’s soldier on and wait and see if something happens (not), either way is fine. Life is  full of different events and feelings and today is only another of those.

 

 

To know or show you know

Most of the time Knowledge is power and that power put to use it can be very important.

When one knows things there is a need to convey and show others that you have a level of knowledge in one given subject or many for that matter, the difficulty arises when the knowledge you had acquired is not required even if that your input will make a change.

Some people need to be recognized for their understanding of a subject and how they manage to express it. others couldn’t care less and they are more than happy to be passed by(while you know you know , nothing else matter).

I know there are loads of grey areas in between of this simple statement. my wonderment comes into the questions when and how one should show their learnings?

All the Time:

” Hello!!! I’m Here I know! Please pick me if not I will perform Harakiri…”

or

” You need me,You know you will benefit, without my knowledge your business or whatever it is will crumble and then you will regret the time you did not choose my acquired skills”

Sometimes:

“I’m here with this bundle of information that is useful for your endeavours, should you ask me I will decide if I can bother myself to help you”

or

“OK how can we share and do this, moving forward”

Never

“Ah you need me to share my Knowledge with you in this?  Let’s meet up later(never) to discuss”

Telling yourself.  ” How possibly be that what I know of interest to other people , I rather have this to myself and not give away  my thought” You never know which evils people will do with this info”.(Paranoid much?).

I don’t know, I just find some situations funny

Monday…

I love Mondays , most people think I’m crazy but Monday for me is a beginning and beginnings are full of Hope.

Specially when outside is so lovely neither hot or cold with the sun shining and kissing your face.

Monday morning is amazing you have completed a whole another week and your toes are balancing at the edge of a new day trying to go forward, it is only a matter of time until your brain clicks so you can start the day(already loads of words describing journeys to come).

How people think it isn’t a day for motivation it boggles me as Monday is bringing you a whole bundle of new adventures , feelings  and energy.

Tube

In London whether you like it or not we are a bit paranoid ,at least I’am. Not that I’m a scardy cat but I do think about how I will react to different incidents.

This morning ,when a good crowd goes to work , I took the tube at Clapham South as usual. As per routine I scanned the people on the carriage, I always do, remembering that someone spend long time studying people from the tube and then wrote a book. Of course there isn’t any available seat, I will have to wait until Stockwell.

Leaning against the screen next to the sliding doors while listening to very loud music,my attention which was in Lala land start to focus in the chap opposite me reading the Koran or so I thought , maybe was any other book in arabic, he was reading aloud to himself (so not so laud).Therefore because I’m human and whether or not I like it, a bit prejudice I started to plan in my head for the worst scenario. They were 2 alternatives,that I had contemplated basicly one he might blow everyone up so we caput or he might produce a knife and start to stab us all.With the latter I was working out that if I put my bag (Full of standard ladies bag things)I might be able to stop the knife going through and that might buy the ladies who were wearing white linen( very inconvenient colour for the situation going on in my head), After a while of how I will defend myself and help people strategies, I looked up and realise there are far more scary men and women in here that this poor bloke which I’m judging, at the end of the day, it is Friday and is the day of worship for some religions. and they need to pray at some point during the day.

Maybe next week I will analyze the man with camouflage gear and all his murders(I think he looks like a serial killer)

Now the metal machine is in Embankment (do I get down and walk, “nah… I stay on til L Square”).

 

There are plenty of books about the underground which are very interesting.

Here is a review about Underground notes

https://www.theguardian.com/books/2013/mar/23/penguin-underground-lines-tube-review

A great shop for more underground stories and London curiosities is

http://www.stanfords.co.uk/