Everyone would think that being a copy cat is a bad thing… It always had a negative connotation as the person who is coping is some how an idea thief.
I wonder if we could see it in a lighter light, for example the person who uses someone else idea wants the idea to be known , a bit like networking.
Why do we need to patent our thoughts?
Short and sweet!
The beauty of rearrange is that you are free to do it all the time, it is like a new begging withing your ever moving world.
I rearrange my ideas as I put them in order, is like the furniture in your house I rearrange it to look and feel either renewed or different withing the same context.
Rearrange means that you are not limited to be or think you are stuck, it tells you that you are in constant motion to strive and better your self and your surroundings.
Sometimes all this rearranging can have an adverse effect , the good thing as I mentioned before you can regroup and rearrange again and again to find the right rearrangement to harmonize everything and everyone, I know the last statement sounds a bit too hopeful… if not to flowery power…
At the end of the day one likes to feel that can move things about(palpable things, abstract things , ideas and actions) Life is life and one has to make the best of it. by doing some tweaking improvements for time to time.
What I do love to do is changing my living room for time to time, my husband laugh at me, my daughter loves it and my boy couldn’t care less, one thing I know is when all is more a less done, well things never get done completely(well it does depends of the project at hand and what we call completed), they enjoy the changes. I rare occasions they ask me when I’m going to rearrange the space which delights me as they gave me a free pass…
I will stop blabbering , I think rearranging rocks !
Sometimes is good to write about nothing…
Loads of things had happen since my last post. Mainly to do with family, now trying to arrive to the other side of the drama and put a bow on it.
Although very happy to have move to our own place (renting, but still own place without other people but my husband and 2 children), guilty that I can not care for people who I love. well enough of this nonsense, I already emotionally drain.
Lately to escape going on and on about one topic, I have started to observe people, not that I don’t do it all the time but I’m spending extra minutes thinking i the superfluous things that concerns(or maybe not) that individual. Such as the clothe combination they wear.
This one puzzle me the other day, someone that try to emulate Tom Cruises style of jeans( not flare or straight enough )and Cuban shoes, sadly this shoes were a cross between a Chelsea boot and the style mention above, of course the trouser were high waist and light blue. , I gather you get the picture is like men who wear suits or chinos they don’t really know how to wear denim. They buy them short or they use the belt at the wrong height… What ever it was wrong.
I might be a little paranoid and full of issues but this is what is happening to me right now…
My sister in law has been messing with me and my family again and my father in law has disappointed me greatly. This time I try to stay out of the picture so confrontation was avoided . As this wasn’t convenient for my SIL ,she decided to target my daughter. To all of this my father in law made my daughter feel guilty for something she said whilst angry. My girl is only 9 .
I know it doesn’t help that I’m living with my in laws due to illness on their part (lyme disease).
I’m all to support my husband and his mother in this difficult journey. What I’m not cool with is seeing adult people damaging me and least of all my family (husband and 2 kids).
I know that part of Lyme is the inflammation in certain parts of the brain which makes you have extreme rage reactions. I can deal and understand and even allowed such outbursts as a symptom of an illness, but sadly the rejection and malicious passive aggressive comments are not part of this disease. My husband is being fantastic trying to emotionally support our family and his parents.
Nevertheless this doesn’t stop my father in law from showing his constant discomfort with our presence. ..
My husband and I chosen to look after them, we new that it wouldn’t be easy but we were trying to cope with the changes until once again his sister decided to alter the status quo.
A bit of background in my non existing relationship with my SIL.
Basically she got married and went to leave abroad and since then she led me to think that she feels that I want to fill her space. I had in the past distant my self from her parents so she doesn’t had this sensation towards me. Sadly it was taken as lack of care or interest.
Then the children came along to both of our lives. (Please may I point out I do not obsess “all the time ” about her)only when she tries to put me or someone I love down . Because only her feelings are valid…
Well coming back to the bitterness that she feel against my kids,my husband and I for living closer to her parents. And how many things the grandparents are doing with my children rather than hers. Ok grandparents came and visit often but that’s all not many bonding or fantastic outings were done. I don’t care… my kids love their grandparents just for being their grandparents not for the things they give them or do with them. My SIL doesn’t see it that way.
When her daughters are with my kids everything is fine till she pulls them away from spending time with them and ditch my kids at her first opportunity.
Of course my kids have to be there ready to play if she thinks it suit her. In many occasions we had to cancel play dates or postpone already made plans only to discover that she decided to take only her children for tea without inviting mine.All of this is done in front of the children. If you do it once ok. But when you break my kids hearts several times …you will not be in my good list.
It is so frustrating because yes I have a problem with her making me feel so bad just for being about. She is so resentful of me just because I’m me. She made a choice of going somewhere else to live and not be here. I’m not saying that is as simple as that… I’m come from abroad too… and is hard as there is a lots of feelings of abandonment, guilt and blah blah and if you suffer from depression is even worse. We also have the ability of changing our decisions though so if you’re not happy with your life go ahead and do something about it.
I do not hope to have a relationship with her , she made it clear that my efforts are in vain, I’m just want this stupidity to end. I have loads of other things and people to worry and love and this is hindering my ability to do so. Sorry for the typos
This last twelve months were not my best ones. Today though I am in a beautiful place ( literally) I was here 4 years ago and I had the same great fuzzy sensation in in my being.
I’m here with my best people and it is lovely. For a minute or two I can forget and forgive this year that was mostly quite painful.